I know I tried

bold and strong, waiting for the world…

It doesn’t always go the way we would like it to. We try our best, our hardest, damn it, why doesn’t this work, but the end result is not always what we want it to be, what we hope it to be. Our minds don’t function to the best of our abilities all the time. It sucks and I don’t like it. But it is my reality and I have to deal with it.

Dealing with it may mean a flood of emotions; anger, disappointment, frustration sometimes to the point that we are overwhelmed and want to walk away and forget that today ever happened. We have those days and they are defeating. Some people are so defeated that it is the end to what it was they were pursuing. That’s an unfortunately ending because although these days happen, they are not every day.

I think we need these days, some days.  I believe that ultimately we become stronger because of them. Why? Because you came back. You came back to face the same tasks that put you into that feeling of defeat. You got up and came back to better yourself. You have grown for the better. You fell down, got back up and continued. You didn’t let this moment defeat you or define you. It shouldn’t define you because it’s not a reflection of what you can do. It’s not a reflection of what you are.

Our minds although powerful do fail us and we can’t always control that. Whether it’s the time we freeze while writing a test and we know the answer but it eludes us at that time, or it’s the time we are performing and we can’t remember a sequence. We can’t control that. What we can control is what we do moving forward. We can either let those moments defeat us, win over us, or we can accept it as part of being human and dust ourselves off and give it another shot. We can grow from the experience and ultimately we become stronger than before. Do we get upset, do we get mad, do we cry? Yeah. And that’s perfectly fine. The emotions are there for a reason and they have to happen. Sometimes letting those emotions happen help us feel better, help us get back to tackling what it is that put us there. Don’t let someone tell you that you need to suck it up. Sure, move forward and try again but we need to let those emotions happen.

Those bad days are going to happen and they will happen again. The bad days don’t define you, what you do with those days, and following those days is what defines you. Know that you are not alone in this. You have company. We’ve all been there.

Yours in health,

Darryl